Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Saturday, October 04, 2008
The Battle Goes On
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Nearly a Year
He was just starting to get better when he complained about his side hurting. Turned out to be his colon had burst and infection was setting in. They did an emergency colectomy and gave him a colostomy bag. Then a day later we were visiting him and there was blood on the sheet which we reported to a nurse. Supposedly the doctor checked it and said everything was okay. Five o'clock the next morning we get a call from the hospital that he had internal bleeding and they were losing him and to hurry to the hospital. When we got there they had revived him from being clinically dead.
He never really regained his strength after that. He pretty much stopped eating and would only suck on crushed ice. One evening I got to the hospital and he demanded "Where have you been?" As I'm explaining I realize from what he is saying that he doesn't recognize me and thinks that I am one of the nurses.
His family doctor told him that if he did not start eating and moving around that he would die. We finally got his permission to insert a feeding tube, but when I got to the hospital the next day he had torn it out. He was moved to a nursing home later that day because he had been in the hospital a month and he had medicare. Got him settled into his room, watched the nurse feed him a little food which I took as a good sign. Left and promised to come back the next day, Saturday.
Saturday late early afternoon was the school carnival which we took the kids to. After that we decided to go straight to the nursing home rather than home for lunch first, it was around 2 o'clock. When we got there I could recognize his breathing as like my mom did the last 6 hours of her life. I went down the hall to find a nurse and ask how long he'd been like that. I was waiting at the nurses station when finally someone told me to go back to his room as the nurse was there. I walked into the room to be told that he had died while I was waiting to see the nurse. Thankfully my husband was with him and was holding his hand when he died.
No one had told me how bad he really was. All such a shock, especially after losing mom only 10 months earlier. I always felt that if he got past 6 months that he'd do okay, but I really do think that in the end he just gave up. He was in the hospital for over a month with nothing to do but lay there and think. I believe he finally decided just to let go and be with mom.
Weight Loss hiccup
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
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Monday, August 27, 2007
Five More
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
On the Way
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Oy Vey
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
THAT Long??
It seems like a lifetime since I wrote.
My mom died in April.
Their new house is done.
My dad's hearing, and walking is getting worse.
He seems to be forgetting more.
He's lonely.
He's driving me crazy.
Friday, June 16, 2006
World Upside Down
I see my last message told of my ADD and also my parents move here. So much has changed.
My mom had been feeling tired since the move, and was a bit depressed. Also had kind of lost her appetite. She'd seen the doctor, but for an 86 year old woman who just packed up a house and moved 3000 miles, none of those symptoms seemed unusual.
She had been on a blood thinner, and when she went for a monthly blood test, they said her blood was too thin. Stop taking it, and retest in two days. This we did over and over until finally a new test was ordered because the blood was still too thin.
The morning of March 31st I took her for another blood draw, and as we were in the registration area, I noticed that she was a bit jaundiced (yellow). That afternoon the doctor's office called to say that her liver enzymes were abnormal, and that if the whites of her eyes went yellow, or she had stomach pain to take her to the emergency room. When asked, she said that she didn't have stomach pain, per se, but it was uncomfortable and she was rubbing her stomach to make it feel better. Between that and her jaundice I took her to the ER.
They did an MRI and then the most blunt, insensitive doctor I've ever met arrived to tell her she had a tumor on her pancreas. As she started to look frightened, I said something like "Well we don't even know if it's malignant or benign yet." With that, the doctor said, "Oh it's cancer".
more to follow
Sunday, January 08, 2006
How Time Flies
One amazing thing that happened is that due to a change in medication, we discovered I had been suffering from undiagnosed ADD all these years. With the change in medication, the fog lifted.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Myths of the Middle East
© 2000 WorldNetDaily.com
I've been quiet since Israel erupted in fighting spurred by disputes over the Temple Mount.
Until now, I haven't even bothered to say, "See, I told you so." But I can't resist any longer. I feel compelled to remind you of the column I wrote just a couple weeks before the latest uprising. Yeah, folks, I predicted it. That's OK. Hold your applause.
After all, I wish I had been wrong. More than 80 people have been killed since the current fighting in and around Jerusalem began. And for what?
If you believe what you read in most news sources, Palestinians want a homeland and Muslims want control over sites they consider holy. Simple, right?
Well, as an Arab-American journalist who has spent some time in the Middle East dodging more than my share of rocks and mortar shells, I've got to tell you that these are just phony excuses for the rioting, trouble-making and land-grabbing.
Isn't it interesting that prior to the 1967 Arab-Israeli war, there was no serious movement for a Palestinian homeland?
"Well, Farah," you might say, "that was before the Israelis seized the West Bank and Old Jerusalem."
That's true. In the Six-Day War, Israel captured Judea, Samaria and East Jerusalem. But they didn't capture these territories from Yasser Arafat. They captured them from Jordan's King Hussein. I can't help but wonder why all these Palestinians suddenly discovered their national identity after Israel won the war.
The truth is that Palestine is no more real than Never-Never Land. The first time the name was used was in 70 A.D. when the Romans committed genocide against the Jews, smashed the Temple and declared the land of Israel would be no more. From then on, the Romans promised, it would be known as Palestine. The name was derived from the Philistines, a Goliathian people conquered by the Jews centuries earlier. It was a way for the Romans to add insult to injury. They also tried to change the name of Jerusalem to Aelia Capitolina, but that had even less staying power.
Palestine has never existed -- before or since -- as an autonomous entity. It was ruled alternately by Rome, by Islamic and Christian crusaders, by the Ottoman Empire and, briefly, by the British after World War I. The British agreed to restore at least part of the land to the Jewish people as their homeland.
There is no language known as Palestinian. There is no distinct Palestinian culture. There has never been a land known as Palestine governed by Palestinians. Palestinians are Arabs, indistinguishable from Jordanians (another recent invention), Syrians, Lebanese, Iraqis, etc. Keep in mind that the Arabs control 99.9 percent of the Middle East lands. Israel represents one-tenth of 1 percent of the landmass.
But that's too much for the Arabs. They want it all. And that is ultimately what the fighting in Israel is about today. Greed. Pride. Envy. Covetousness. No matter how many land concessions the Israelis make, it will never be enough.
What about Islam's holy sites? There are none in Jerusalem.
Shocked? You should be. I don't expect you will ever hear this brutal truth from anyone else in the international media. It's just not politically correct.
I know what you're going to say: "Farah, the Al Aqsa Mosque and the Dome of the Rock in Jerusalem represent Islam's third most holy sites."
Not true. In fact, the Koran says nothing about Jerusalem. It mentions Mecca hundreds of times. It mentions Medina countless times. It never mentions Jerusalem. With good reason. There is no historical evidence to suggest Mohammed ever visited Jerusalem.
So how did Jerusalem become the third holiest site of Islam? Muslims today cite a vague passage in the Koran, the seventeenth Sura, entitled "The Night Journey." It relates that in a dream or a vision Mohammed was carried by night "from the sacred temple to the temple that is most remote, whose precinct we have blessed, that we might show him our signs. ..." In the seventh century, some Muslims identified the two temples mentioned in this verse as being in Mecca and Jerusalem. And that's as close as Islam's connection with Jerusalem gets -- myth, fantasy, wishful thinking. Meanwhile, Jews can trace their roots in Jerusalem back to the days of Abraham.
The latest round of violence in Israel erupted when Likud Party leader Ariel Sharon tried to visit the Temple Mount, the foundation of the Temple built by Solomon. It is the holiest site for Jews. Sharon and his entourage were met with stones and threats. I know what it's like. I've been there. Can you imagine what it is like for Jews to be threatened, stoned and physically kept out of the holiest site in Judaism?
So what's the solution to the Middle East mayhem? Well, frankly, I don't think there is a man-made solution to the violence. But, if there is one, it needs to begin with truth. Pretending will only lead to more chaos. Treating a 5,000-year-old birthright backed by overwhelming historical and archaeological evidence equally with illegitimate claims, wishes and wants gives diplomacy and peacekeeping a bad name.( from www.worldnetdaily.com )
Facts about the land of Israel
A list of facts
1. Nationhood and Jerusalem - Israel became a nation in 1312 B.C.E., two thousand years before the rise of Islam.
2. Arab refugees in Israel began identifying themselves as part of a Palestinian people in 1967, two decades after the establishment of the modern State of Israel.
3. Since the Jewish conquest in 1272 B.C.E. the Jews have had dominion over the land for one thousand years with a continuous presence in the land for the past 3,300 years.
4. Arabs have only had control of Israel twice - from 634 until the Crusader invasion in June 1099, and from 1292 until the year 1517 when they were dispelled by the Turks in their conquest.
5. For over 3,300 years, Jerusalem has been the Jewish capital. Jerusalem has never been the capital of any Arab or Muslim entity. Even when the Jordanians occupied Jerusalem, they never sought to make it their capital, and Arab leaders did not come to visit.
6. Jerusalem is mentioned over 700 times in Tanach, the Jewish Holy Scriptures. Jerusalem is not mentioned once in the Koran. There are vague references to Jerusalem in the Hadiths - stories about Mohammed - that he stopped his night journey (which the Koran explains took place in a dream!) at the "farther mosque" (or "distant place"). Muslims explain that this means "at the edge of the Temple mount", although no direct reference to Jerusalem or the Temple Mount is made.
7. King David established the city of Jerusalem as Israel's capital. Mohammed never came to Jerusalem.
8. Jews pray facing Jerusalem. Some Muslims (i.e. those between Israel and Saudi Arabia) pray with their backs toward Jerusalem.
9. Arab and Jewish Refugees - In 1948 the Arab refugees were encouraged to leave Israel by Arab leaders promising to purge the land of Jews. Sixty eight percent left without ever seeing an Israeli soldier.
10. The Jewish refugees were forced to flee from Arab lands due to Arab brutality, persecution and pogroms.
11. The number of Arab refugees who left Israel in 1948 is estimated to be around 630,000. The number of Jewish refugees from Arab lands is estimated to be the same.
12. Arab refugees were INTENTIONALLY not absorbed or integrated into the Arab lands to which they fled, despite the vast Arab territory. Out of the 100,000,000 refugees since World War II, theirs is the only refugee group in the world that has never been absorbed or integrated into their own peoples' lands. Jewish refugees were completely absorbed into Israel, a country no larger than the state of New Jersey.
13. The Arab - Israeli Conflict - The Arabs are represented by eight separate nations, not including the Palestinians. There is only one Jewish nation. The Arab nations initiated all five wars and lost. Israel defended itself each time and won.
14. The P.L.O.'s Charter still calls for the destruction of the State of Israel. Israel has given the Palestinians most of the West Bank land, autonomy under the Palestinian Authority, and has supplied them with weapons.
15. Under Jordanian rule, Jewish holy sites were desecrated and the Jews were denied access to places of worship. Under Israeli rule, all Muslim and Christian sites have been preserved and made accessible to people of all faiths.
16. The U.N. Record on Israel and the Arabs - Of the 175 Security Council resolutions passed before 1990, 97 were directed against Israel.
17. Of the 690 General Assembly resolutions voted on before 1990, 429 were directed against Israel.
18. The U.N was silent while 58 Jerusalem Synagogues were destroyed by the Jordanians.
19. The U.N. was silent while the Jordanians systematically desecrated the ancient Jewish cemetery on the Mount of Olives.
20. The U.N. was silent while the Jordanians enforced an apartheid-like policy of preventing Jews from visiting the Temple Mount and the Western Wall.
(from www.middleeastfacts.com )
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Long Time No See
Friday, June 17, 2005
What's That Smell?
Guess I'm Okay
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Friday, May 27, 2005
Do You Mind if I Rant?
Today the same thing. Found one I could afford, last one, package had been opened. Different store. Brought it home. Doesn't work.
When someone returns something like that, you'd think they would check it to be sure that it works!
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Wild Ride
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Home Again
Planned?
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Fixing Social Security
I also think "what goes around, comes around". The baby boomers wanted to have the "choice" to abort babies. Now they aren't going to have a choice to retire at 65. I wonder how the social security numbers would be without the 46,023,191Total Abortions since 1973
Thursday, April 28, 2005
More True Life
Hospital was packed. I got there at around 1:45 and didn't get in the ER to see dh until about 4:30. By that time bloodwork had been done, ekg, etc., and it was decided that he had not had a heart attack, but that it was his gall bladder acting up (again). He's now seen the specialist, and scheduled to have it removed next week.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
"We Have A Pope"
"The prophecy labels the new pope "the Glory of the Olive." The Benedictine Order is known as the Olivetans and has as its symbol the olive branch. The new pope, though not of that order, chose as his name Benedict XVI."
Monday, April 18, 2005
And the World Changes
Strange thing about memories. I remember the exchange rates for England, Italy and Greece (from '72). England was nearly $2.50 to the pound, Italy was L1000=$1.62, and the drachma was 30 to the dollar. There is no more Lire or Drachma, only the Euro. And in spring of 1985 the dollar and the pound were nearly equal.
Sometimes I think I'd like to go back to Europe. Back to Italy and Greece. But then I know that they have changed so much, I'm afraid I might be disappointed. I am not by nature a prejudiced person, but I don't know how I would feel to going to Europe and seeing lots of Muslims.
I watched a movie the other day. It was "Mrs. 'arris Goes to Paris" with Angela Landsbury, and Omar Sharif. It is supposed to be Paris in the 1950's. I actually cried after seeing it because it shows a Paris that will never be again.
Immigration is such a touchy subject. As an American, I know that apart from the Native Americans we are all immigrants. But the difference is that because there was limited ways of getting here, for example through Ellis Island, it was all pretty much done legally, and many were sent home if they failed the health exam. Once here they embraced being here and becoming "American". Today's immigrants, it seems, don't have that same feeling of wanting to become American.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Life Goes On
"According to the prophecy, the next Pope will be the second last Pope Gloria Olivæ ("Glory of the Olives"). Will it be someone from the Mediterranean (Italy, France, Spain)? Or will it be perhaps someone with olive skin (say, from Latin America)?"
So who knows what will happen. I don't believe every claim of prophesy, but I do believe that it can exist.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
No Statue of Limitations for Murder
There is no statute of limitations for murder
This email comes at an appropriate time. BlogsForTerri has been contacted by several national groups asking to join forces with BlogsForTerri and the Terri Schindler Schiavo Foundation in fighting back the euthanasia movement in the U.S., strongly supporting an investigation of possible injustices that may have resulted in Terri's starvation and dehydration, and helping people to understand the difference between a life-supporting "Will to Live" and the euthanasia-supporting "Living Will." Strategic planning for this action is ongoing and will intensify later next week after the Mass for Terri. As previously announced, BlogsForTerri is expanding it's membership to an even 1000 bloggers and is increasing it's posting authors to at least 20.
From an attorney, by email:
There is no statute of limitations for murder.
NOW is the time for Governor Jeb Bush to appoint a special prosecutor to investigate the entire sad saga of the court-ordered starvation and dehydration of Terri Schiavo, and to empanel a grand jury to indict whoever needs to be indicted.
NOW is the time for him to take action. If he was unwilling to be held in contempt of court while she was alive, he at least owes her and the Schindler family and all residents of Pinellas County who depend on the Sheriff's Office and the State Attorney and DCF for protection to find out what happened and to hold people accountable, no matter their position.
Now is the time.
Please send this out on your e-mail lists and ask people to send it on to their trees. Press Jeb to act to uphold Florida law now.
Another Goodbye
Thursday, March 31, 2005
It's Over
We pray for Terri's soul to be with God and at peace.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Helpless
I have thoughts that if Terri is allowed to die, that I would rather live somewhere else. Except most countries are even worse when it comes to this type of thing.
Where is the mass media? Why isn't 60 Minutes, or Dateline NBC, or any of the other investigative reporting shows doing a story about this? There is such reasonable doubt about how Terri got into this state, and what "this state" actually is. Why hasn't someone with money paid for a special show on tv to show Terri's true condition to the American public?
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Day Five
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
May Be Hope Yet
I just read this on www.blogsforterri.com
Because she had been subpoenaed as a Federal witness they say that she qualifies for the Federal Witness Protection Program. Let's hope they act quickly.
03.22.05
Terri Schiavo Qualifies for Federal Witness Protection Program
By The Empire Journal
Whenever a government witness is placed in danger, a government attorney may apply for the services of the federal Witness Protection Program in order to protect a witness against dangers that may be related to the witness’ testimony.
For the complete story:
http://www.theempirejournal.com/49127_terri_schiavo_qualifies_fo.htm
Reflection
Monday, March 21, 2005
Stoves

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Latest on Terri
Another VERY interesting thing. Throughout this, the main reason that Michael has had, and the judge agreed, was some supposed one liner comment that "I wouldn't want to live like that" while watching a movie with someone on "life support". That is the justification that Michael has given, and that is the supposed reason that the judge has ruled in Michael's favor. Now, in an interview on Larry King Live, is this statement, as usual:
Asked why he has persisted in his decade-long effort to end his wife's life despite the wishes of Terri Schiavo's parents and others who love her, Schiavo said: "Because this is what Terri wanted. This is her wish."
But later in the interview he said THIS:
Shortly after saying his determination to end Terri's life was about her wishes, Schiavo changed his story in the King interview. Asked if he understood her family's feelings, he said: "Yes, I do. But this is not about them, it's about Terri. And I've also said that in court. We didn't know what Terri wanted, but this is what we want. ..."
The interview aired Friday.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Big Surprise
Help is Getting Closer
House Unanimously Passes 'Terri's Law II'
WASHINGTON, March 17 /Christian Wire Service/
Christian Coalition of America commends the United States House of Representatives for unanimously passing "Terri's Law II" late Wednesday night which will effectively save the life of Terri Schiavo in Florida where she was scheduled to be starved to death on Friday.
Christian Coalition especially commends the Chairman of the Judiciary Committee, Jim Sensenbrenner, (R-WI) and Congressman Dave Weldon, (R-FL), both authors of "Terri's Law II" and House leaders, Speaker Dennis Hastert and Majority Leader Tom DeLay, (R-TX) for fast-tracking this critically important bill. Chairman Sensenbrenner teamed up with Congressman Weldon to sponsor "The Protection of Incapacitated Persons Act of 2005" (which replaced the "Incapacitated Persons Legal Protection Act of 2005" sponsored by Congressman Weldon).
Christian Coalition activists are urged to immediately contact both of your Senators and urge them to vote for the Sensenbrenner/Weldon House bill when it reaches the Senate floor most likely on Thursday. Senator Mel Martinez, (R-FL) has sponsored the Senate bill, S. 539, the counterpart to the Weldon bill. It is anticipated that Senate Majority Leader Bill Frist, (R-TN), will bring the just-passed House bill to save Terri Schiavo's life directly to the Senate floor today.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Community
Those days have changed. Recently we were driving to town, and I commented that I thought a particular house was for sale. Turned out it had been sold, bought, and resold. There are any number of houses around here that we've seen sell, and then be up for sale again. I'd be interested in the new "average" time a family stays in a house.
Which brings me to blogs. We have destroyed community in our own towns by moving so often. But with the internet and things like blogs, we are recreating it somewhat. For example, having been to Ukraine for the adoption of my son, I regularly read various blogs by expats (English or American) living in Ukraine, and have corresponded somewhat via email with them. I have made friends via various Yahoo groups, and eventually met some of them. In the pre Internet days, I met one of my dearest friends via the Countryside Contacts page of Countryside magazine. We've been friends for about 13 years now. We lived in California, and she in Indiana. We now live only about 90 miles from one another and get together on a regular basis.
We are starved for that sense of community and are recreating it where ever we can. There has been an incredible interest in the Amish and Plain churches. This is because of their modesty, and the sense of community that everyone admires and wishes for.





